A Pic A Day

52 Weeks of Colour - Sienna

2011-01-10T06:12:00.000-08:00

Well my version of sienna, purely because I love this avvie!

I've been MIA for a few weeks so will have to do a catch up blog post to cover the 3 colours previous to this that I missed.

Credits:

Skin - OH DEER! Basic Nomi 3 from ++PE++

Antlers - OH DEER! Basic from ++PE++

Ears - OH DEER! Basic from ++PE++

Eyes - Dreaming Azur from negaposi

Eyelashes - NoAlpha N01 from Miamai

Hair - Ruby 03 Brown from +BM+

Top - There b leaves on it from Pig

Shorts - ~SW~ Pants Brown from Tokushi (comes with the belt which is available on different attachment points, male and female sized and also for furries of humans. Furries option has the belt raising in a 'hump' over the tail. Is typically suited for Neko tails but with a bit of modification it can suit any tail)

Digi Legs - OH DEER! Basic from ++PE++

Project Positivity

2011-01-04T01:29:00.000-08:00

I saw my friend Randi plurk her Project Positivity picture and I was curious as to what it was all about. She also had the link to where it all started so I checked out the blog post from Keira Seerose over on the SL Style Directory. I love this 'challenge'.

I had recently followed in the footsteps of someone who I admire for her courage, determination and honesty, Auguste Finistair, and did my 5 confessions about the RL me on plurk so this was perfect.

Normally I would have found it hard to talk positively about myself. But recently I have sorta seen the world differently....the SLWorld as well. So at 8:07pm today, 4th of January (Australian Time) I stated my first positive about myself.....

1. I love my eyes. I think they are my best feature.

..........then I just kept going....................

2. I love that I have a bubbly personality.

3. I love being artistic. I can draw, sew, paint, build & write.

4. I love that I have a huge family that I can always depend on.

5. I love that I can say proudly I am a plus size girl. Curves Rule!

6. I love being tall.

7. I love that I have two sisters that are 8yrs & 12yrs and I am 32yrs even though some think the age diff. odd.

8. I love that I love deeply and faithfully

9. I love my sense of humour, no matter how warped it is.

..........and at 8:36pm I got to my last positive about me. Which is also a positive about a person I consider my best friend who also has her own difficulties realising she is someone of a lot more worth than she gives herself credit for. Sanura Snowpaw is my best friend and someone that I consider a sister so it felt only right that I share my positives with her........

10. I love that I made a friend for life in SL. She is as much a sister to me as my RL sisters are and I would do anything for her. <3>

Even if you don't have a flickr page to share/contribute your Project Positivity, or you don't have a blog to share it on, stop and take a few minutes for yourself and even just jot them on the nearest scrap of paper. We all need a little positive encouragement in our lives from time to time and we can't accept it and make a better life for each other if we ourselves can't even say something positive about ourselves.

Thank you Keira for this awesome 'challenge'.

I decided to use an RL pic of me. Since these positives are about the secretary behind the keyboard for Arora's pixels.

52 Weeks of Colour - Yellow

2010-12-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

I was a little worried about doing this weeks challenge. Yellow isn't exactly the easiest colour to wear, and it certainly doesn't go well with my normal skin tone. So I took longer to decide on my outfit this week and during my thinking process a mini meme appeared in plurk with 'What colour crayon are you'. Turns out I am in fact a yellow crayon*...huh...go figure. So that spurred me on then to come up with this bright and cheerful wintery look. I had to search through quite a few skins until I was satisfied and I have to say.....I love this dark skin!

Skin: Dahlia - Mocha - potpourri from Cupcakes

Hair: Winter II (update) - Onyx from .::S::. Secrets Hair (beanie is colour/texture change, lemon shown)

Eyes: Dreaming - Boscage from negaposi

Eyelashes: No1 NoAlpha Lashes from Miamai

Makeup: Belina Lipstick 05 from [CheerNo] Femme (on face close-up only)

Sweater: Snuzzle Sweater {Black} from .: Somnia :.

Scarf/Shirt/Jeans/Belt/Boots: Yellow Jellies from .:[NMD]:. (complete outfit, also comes with white rolled up sweater not shown here)

* Results of being a Yellow Crayon are:

You Are a Yellow Crayon

Your world is colored with happy, warm, fun colors.
You have a thoughtful and wise way about you. Some people might even consider you a genius.
Charming and eloquent, you are able to get people to do things your way.
While you seem spontaneous and free wheeling, you are calculating to the extreme.

Your color wheel opposite is purple. You both are charismatic leaders, but purple people act like you have no depth.

52 Weeks of Colour - Sepia

2010-12-03T02:07:00.001-08:00

I was feeling a little nostalgic.

Skin - Jane-Pale...dk...Oh, me! from !RT

Eyes - Dreaming - Azur from negaposi

Eyelashes - No1 NoAlpha Lashes from Miamai

Hair - Betty Boop - Black/Brown from Curio

Beauty Spot - Beautymark right lip black from -Perse-

Jacket - vaudevillian fur bolero - chocolate from couverture*

Top - LUMIERE Dress (worn without dress prim) Black from couverture*

52 Weeks of Colour - Plum

2010-11-25T21:25:00.001-08:00

I had fun with this one believe it or not. Most that know me, know that I am not a fan of pink or light purples that look like pink or anything close to it. But whilst searching for something plum for this post (I didn't own ONE SINGLE THING that was even close to being plum in colour) I came across this AWESOME hair do. whilst it is more pink than plum I just love it. So I couldn't resist wearing it for my plum photo. Thanks again Luna for this challenge. It's fantastic.

Skin - :GP: Acorn Frex [Light] Elf-Soot 2 from Curio Skins

Eyes - Dreaming - Azur from negaposi

Eyelashes - No1 NoAlpha Lashes from Miamai

Hair - Vintage Vixen Plum from *JetDoll*

Dress - Wild Zero - lavender from A-BOMB

52 Weeks of Colour - Goldenrod

2010-11-20T01:52:00.000-08:00

Well I was a little stumped this week. Not many creators actually label their items as 'goldenrod' lol. But after a bit of searching through my mess I call an inventory I found what I think is the closest I will find.

Skin - :GP: Acorn Frex [Light] Elf-Soot 2 from Curio Skins

Eyes - Dreaming eyes - Azur from negaposi

Hair - Tara streaked - espresso from >TRUTH<

Outfit - Couture Special Edition *Bax* Gold Set from Jada Humby (includes 3 different gold shades of top, sculpted belt, sculpted skirt and stockings)

Shoes - Prestige Boots Gold from Bax (menu change to three different shades of gold)

Prop - Moon Poses from [ImpEle]

52 Weeks of Colour - Blue

2010-11-17T05:17:00.000-08:00

Week 2 - Blue.

Skin - :GP: Acorn Frex [Light] Elf-Soot 2 from Curio Skins

Eyes - Dreaming eyes - Azur from negaposi

Hair - Darla streaked - espresso from >Truth<

Shirt - i like 2.0 Diva-T from + blacklisted +

Shorts - Jean shorts in blue from *Dreams*

Socks - Duotone Socks Mit Suspenders - Bluebird from Pig

Shoes - Those Shoes in navy from SMERSH

52 Weeks of Colour - Grey

2010-11-17T05:10:00.000-08:00

I was a week late in starting, so I am doing two colours in one week to catch up (this is week one).

Skin - :GP: Acorn Frex [Light] Elf-Soot 2 from Curio Skins

Hair - Egomaniacal - Granny from !lamb

Dress - Kiwi Dress Knee Length Silver from [K~*~S] (dress comes with three length options. Empire Gown length worn)

Tiara - Comes with the Kiwi Dress

Necklace - Sandora silver necklace from Maylo Designs

Here I Sit...

2010-11-16T02:46:00.000-08:00

Here I sit

All broken hearted

Tried to shit

But only farted

Why do the lies still hurt

2010-10-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

Why did I not listen to my gut instinct all that time ago when I first questioned you?

Why did I believe your lies!

Why did I ignore the warning signs?

Why did I believe your lies!

Why....Why......Why?!

I can't believe after all this time I catch a glimpse of you and all these emotions come flooding back in and instead of feeling angry - I feel sad, lonely, hurt, pain...

Time heals all wounds, right?

Plenty more fish in the sea?

Maybe he wasn't Mr Right?

I know your secrets.....you lied time and time again about it and when I asked you, you lied right to my face. We all have insecurities - but hiding behind the fakeness of a female account and fooling all those people just so you can 'feel out' if you have a chance. Be a real man - admit you are shy and just take the consequences of rejection. It fucking hurts and it sucks.

But imagine the hurt and grief when you are finally exposed for what you really were all that time. The new girl in your life that you secretly send messages to claiming to be another just so you can talk about you, the people you told all those lies to about your RL and all the worrying they did over you....and it was all a lie. How do you think they are going to feel.

I am over you. I was over you the moment I found this out. Yet why do I still let your lies hurt me like this? Why do I feel like crying and running into your arms? Why...why...why!

Because you are a manipulator and you know how to make people feel good. Well try doing it the right way and stop the lies before someone else finds out your secrets and you are finally called out. The pain of rejection now might be a little easier to handle the the major humiliation when people find out.

*picture courtesy of google.

Album Cover Challenge

2010-10-23T17:51:00.000-07:00

I loved this challenge. May only be short and simple...but I think my cover actually says it all...lol

The Challenge:

1 - Go to Wikipedia. Hit �random� or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Quotations Page and select "random quotations" or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 The last four or five words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to Flickr and click on �explore the last seven days� or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use Photoshop or similar to put it all together.

My LOTD

2010-10-10T08:00:00.000-07:00

Just for something different I thought I'd share my Look Of The Day.

Skin: Belina tan DB Hair MU02 with Breast Enhancer undershirt layer ~ CheerNo Femme

Hair: Mowhawk _HO37_ in black ~ Black Maria

Eyes: Dreaming eyes in blood ~ Negaposi

Eyelashes: NoAlpha Lashes 10 ~ Miamai

Tattoo: Lip Beauty Mark in black ~ -Perse-

Ears: Sad Elf Ham-Ham ~ ++PE++

Piercing: "confession" lip piercing ~ [skream]

Necklace: Gemma Necklace1 ~ +ROZOREGALIA+

Clothing: Tarnish Exclusive outfit from Operation Squeegee (no longer available) ~ Obsidian Desires

Shoes: Viv Boots in Jet w/silver ~ Pixel Mode

Empty

2010-10-02T19:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we get an empty feeling
down deep inside of us
that we are so alone,
no friends, and no family.
We know it isn’t so,
but that empty feeling,
it still remains to taunt us.
Why we’ll never know.
We could be in a crowded room
and that feeling still resides.
You know that you are not alone,
but you still feel that
empty feeling down deep inside.
~ David Harris

Somebody, Somewhere

2010-09-14T01:34:00.000-07:00

You wondered how you'd make it through.

I wondered what was wrong with you.

How could you give your love to someone else,

Yet share your dreams with me?

Sometimes the only thing you're looking for,

Is the one thing you can't see. ~ Toni Braxton

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,

And finds in your presence that life is worth while,

So when you are lonely, remember it's true:

Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

Are you my somebody?

Curves

2010-07-09T04:33:00.000-07:00

This light finds respite,

in the curve of a cheek sublime,

as the tendrils of wayword honey hair,

blow into blue eyes left dreaming,

always you are scheming,

for one more hour,

one more moment,

just one more story chapter.

The pinkness of a tongue,

stuck out as she contemplates,

huge concepts,

coloring can be a world,

imagination a universe ,

creating.

Something natural in her gaze,

a captured moment in minds eye,

remembrance,

forever locked within me.

This gaze of you in growth,

when all that was needed,

was cushioned,

in a sunshine pause.

~Anon

Squeegee Angels Challenge

2010-07-08T05:20:00.000-07:00

Those birds over at Operation Squeegee have been dipping into the celebration wine again I think. But they came up with this awesome Squeegee Angels Challenge. It's all quite simple really. Grab the FREE antlers at the Stage area of Operation Squeegee, make a donation to a great cause and get your very own Squeegee (you get 6 in a pack - 3 with and 3 without animation AND you also get three poses), make your own Squeegee Style, take a pic and blog/upload it to flickr. Done!

You say you need a squeegee. I was sure I had one around here somewhere.

A womans work is never done.

My Look

Squeegee Items:

Squeegee Antlers - available for FREE at the stage area of Operation Squeegee

Hand held squeegee - available as a free gift when you make a donation to Operation Squeegee (merchants area bucket beside the free antlers)

OpSquee Pink Pose - provided in the gift pack of free Squeegees from the donation bucket gift

::OD::Tarnish Top from the Operation Squeegee Exclusive outfit from ::OD:: at Operation Squeegee Merchants Area

Non Squeegee Items:

Whoop Dee Doo hair in powder from !lamb

Dreaming Eyes in Azur from NegaPosi

OH DEER! Basic Nomi 3 Skin from ++PE++

OH DEER! Basic Ears from ++PE++

~SW~ Pants in Brown from Tokushi

And the winner is.......

2010-07-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

I'll try not to babble on too much for this post. After al it's about the winners not the competition any more. I would just like to add first of all that I will be doing this again in the future, with a twist. New rules, new prizes - NEW EVERYTHING. Now...Lets introduce the winners.

1st Place - Kika Starbrook

Winning by a mere few minutes. Congratulations Kika

2nd Place - Ember Farina

Awesome collection. And only a few minutes behind 1st place. It was certainly a race to the end.

3rd Place - Scarlot Verrazzano

Fantastic efforts Scarlot. Thank you for entering and congratulations.

Funniest Picture Winner - Scarlot Verrazzano

There were definitely some funny entries in this competition. All three judges and myself though had a good giggle at this entry. Scarlot inadvertently captured some text on the screen. So Scarlot, we're curious....what did you get up to after taking this picture hmmm.....hahaha

Most Creative Winner - Ember Farina

This was a unanimous decision to award the most creative award to Ember. Every photo was a different Avatar. Clearly she has an Avatar shopping addiction. But the effort to change for each photo and also match others in the photos with her was awesome. It was hard to pic just one for the photo award - but this one stood out.

Readers Choice Winner - Kika Starbrook

It was a tough decision to narrow down the choices for the Readers Choice nominees. With 56% of the votes from a total of 71 votes across all 5 entrants - Congratulations Kika. I personally love this picture for the way the two girls hair styles make a heart shape.

Thank you to the entrants, to all the snogees out there across the grid for lending your lips and to my three judges - Sanura Snowpaw, Motman Verwood and Madison Swords.

Alphabet Snog-A-Thon Readers Choice Award Nominees are.....

2010-07-01T17:06:00.000-07:00

Just to backtrack a little. If you want to read more about the SL Alphabet Snog-A-Thon just read this previous post.

I am happy to announce that the Judges, Sanura 'Kitteh' Snowpaw, Madison Gunther Allen-Swords, Motman 'FuzzyButt' Verwood and Myself have finally reached a decision on the nominees for the Readers Choice award. It was a tough one as there were so many things to look for in the pictures. But below are your 5 Nominees.

Please look over the Nominees and choose your favourite. To vote, go to our poll page and choose **ONE** nominee that you want to win and vote for them. The names of the Nominee Entrants are under each photo below so you know who to vote for on the poll page.

Final winners of 1st, 2nd and 3rd Major prizes, Funniest Picture Winner, Most Creative Winner and the Readers Choice winner will all be announced on July 5th so stay tuned to see who wins.

'A' from Scarlot Verrazzano

'R' from Kika Starbrook

'E' from Ember Farina

'W' from Kika Starbrook

'C' from Kika Starbrook

A big thank you to those that entered and those that have been following along with the progress and also lending their lips in photos for our entrants. To see ALL pictures entered please visit the SL Snog-A-Thon Flickr page. To keep up to date with future Snog-A-Thon competitions feel free to join the Flickr group or find us inworld - SL Snog-A-Thon

June SL Bloggers Party

2010-06-23T01:23:00.000-07:00

I have the privileged of hosting this months Bloggers Meet up. Me, Moi, Rors.....*bites finger nails*

Party kicks off at 5pm on Saturday 26th June - SL time. The gorgeous boys at WEEK-END Nightclub are generously letting us use their new and improved club for the night, and one of their talented DJ's will be spinning the latest tunes for us.

So if you blog about SL - in any way shape of form make sure you come on down and join in the fun. You can also find the bloggers over at Avatars United . Or you can IM Tymmerie Thorne

with your full avatar name and your blog URL and she will hook you up with a group invite.

Hope to see you all there.

SL Alphabet Snog-A-Thon

2010-06-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

Just how many people do you know in SL? Friends of friends included. Do you think you know at least 26 people whose first names begin with each letter of the alphabet? Are you game enough to kiss them all for a chance to win over $4000L in prizes?

Well get the chapstick and lip gloss out and start smacking lips. Here are a few rules you MUST follow in order to have a chance at winning:

1) Locate 26 people. Their first names must begin with each letter of the alphabet ie: Adam, Betty, Calvin, David, Eelanor, Francis, George, Henriette, Ingrid, Jack, Kris, Luna, Madison, Nick, Ottis, Prue, Quintessa, Rupert, Steve, Tegan, Umberto, Vivienne, Wendy, Xavier, Yuki, Zander (There is an exception. If someone's name starts with numbers I will accept them as the first letter that appears after the numbers, ie 1980Ellie would be an 'E' entry)

2) TP to the set location where there is a pose already in place. Jump on this pose and get your camera at an angle that you are happy with. There is no specific background that needs to be included. But in saying that you cannot photoshop it out and apply your own. The photo must contain the background of where you are.

3) Before you take a snapshot - Follow these instructions. Click snapshot. When the menu comes up, if you haven't already, click on "more>>". You should see 5 checkboxes at the bottom with descriptions beside them. The one that says "show interface in snapshot' needs to have a tick beside it. Now when you take your snapshot your names will appear above your head. This is for your proof that you have found each letter of the alphabet. Get clicking you have 26 photos to take.

4) Entries can be submitted 1 of 4 ways:

1) Send a folder called SL SNOG-A-THON ((YOUR NAME)) containing the photos of you and the 26 leters of the alphabet. Screenshots/photos must be labelled with leters of the alphabet they are.

2) Send a link to your blog where you showcase your 26 letters of the alphabet

3) Send a link to your flickr where you showcase your 26 letters of the alphabet

4) Send an email with your screenshots/photos to arora.zanzibar@gmail.com

** All photos submitted must hve the names visible of both yourself and the other person so that letters of the alphabet can be confirmed.

5) Photos can only be taken between the dates 20th of June and 30th of June 2010. The sim will not be open to the public outside of those dates. All entries must be received by midnight 30th June 2010 SLT.

A little hint. If you are stuck for a letter join the group for free - Alphabet Snog-A-Thon (can be found in my profile in the groups section) and do a call out for a particular letter you are looking for. Someone may be online and looking for your letter too and be able to help.

The good bits.......

There is over $10,000L in gift certificate prizes up for grabs. The first three people, in order of receipt, will win 1st prize - over $4000L in gift certificates, 2nd prize - $2500L in gift certificates and 3rd prize - $1500L in gift certificates.

There will be three category winners also receiving $500L in gift certificates for Funniest picture submitted, Creativity in pictures and Readers Choice. I, along with 3 possible admins of the group, will select 10 pictures we liked from all entries submitted. These will be on display for the readers to choose which one they want to vote for.

There has been a flickr group created which you are all welcome to join. For those that enter their submissions into the flickr group there will be a daily prize awarded to the best entry. Obviously you have to enter your pics on flickr to be in the draw for those prizes.

Now for those of you that are in a relationship or partnered - there is no actual snogging required. The pose is non animated. And you don;t actually lock lips (well in all the avatars shapes and sizes I tried the closes I got was noses touching) in case you don't want to be kissing anyone other than your significant other. As far as I know this is the first of a kind challenge to happen in SL and if it is a success I will look at running it again another time. The picture below is an example of what yours should look like. Showing you the names in the picture.

This is open to anyone and everyone. You don't need to be a photographer to enter. As long as you can take a snapshot that is all that counts. But if you want to go in the draw for the creativity or funniest, then dress up, mosh your picks so you have more than one snapshot on a texture. Creativity is limitless. Have fun and enjoy the sillyness of the SL Alphabet Snog-A-Thon.

BBBC 2010 - Day 6

2010-06-18T05:26:00.001-07:00

Today’s topic: If this is your first BBBC… What did you get out of your experience? Do you think it will change the way you blog in the future?

It's official...my cherry has been plucked. I am a BBBC virgin no more.

I'm not sure that I got anything really. Apart from an immense headache at trying to think if I was still in my time zone or if I was a day ahead of behind to America and which challenge day we were up to.

I have to say when anything comes up in SL and it's at such and such a time on x, y and z days....I get so lost trying to calculate the differences in times.

I think I just realised that no matter what is going on around SL, in our minds with our friends and family...there is always something to blog about. Be it 2 sentences or 200. And there is always someone out there that will read it.

As far as changing my blogging habits in the future......yeah I think it has. As per the above paragraph I realise that I don;t always have to be so critical of myself. I may not be the best blogger around, I may not have the same tastes as everyone else.....but I love to share..so share I will.

BBBC 2010 - Day 5

2010-06-17T18:13:00.001-07:00

Today's Topic - Blogger's choice! Write about anything that's on your mind!

Well this is definitely going to step on some toes.....but like the topic says...anything that's on my mind, and this has been on my mind a lot lately.

I have been seeing a lot of talk around the traps of late in regards to relationships, both SL and RL. Do you mix the two? Are you and your RL partner both in SL? Are you partnered to each other or have an open relationship? Does your RL partner know you play SL? Do they know you have an SL partner. so on and so forth.

I'm going to sound hypocritical here, and it is only because I have been in the situation that I am about to talk about and seen the hurt it causes which is why I now do not like it. But each to their own, we all have our reasons for what we do and I am not about to judge someone for why they do it, I just personally would not.

Married people in RL who have relationships with other people in SL. Is it because you have a very open relationship in RL and this is seen as exploring/swinging? Is it because you can't get from your RL partner what you can from an SL one? Do you not see it as cheating on your wife/husband?

Each way you put it doesn't sound all that happy/inviting to me. And it was only after having two, well actually three but I'll get back to that one, failed relationships in SL that my eyes were opened to this. I just thought of SL as a game. We're just pixels having fun running around a grid. What's the harm in it? My last two previous BF's in SL were both married in RL. One hid his activities in game from his partner, the other hid various activities but the partner did know he was playing SL.

Technically.....I was the mistress. There is no other way of describing it. People have often argued it with me that it's just a game you technically did not have an affair with a married man. But can most people honestly say that their emotions are that shut off that they don't feel any sort of connection to the person they are dating in SL? There really is no other way to look at it other than the married one is cheating on their partner, I guess unless it is an open relationship and both parties know about the other partner in SL/RL.

Then you get ones like my technical third failed relationship. It was one that started on lies. He was seperated from his wife. I didn't feel guilty being flirty with him. Our relationship ended up going RL. I guess maybe the wife wasn't happy that he moved out of home to move in with me. Yeah I felt every emotion under the sun of guilt. However our relationship was based on the lies he was telling of being seperated when in fact he wasn't.

I guess I'm going to cop some backlash over this. I know quite a few people in world who are married in RL and have different partners in SL. I generally mind my own business and let them do their thing, notice I said 'generally'. Call me two faced, call me a hypocrite, what ever you like. I'm just like a reformed smoker/alcoholic at a party bitching to all the drinkers/smokers how it's bad for them etc etc. But it's only because I have been there, I don't like what I did, and I don't want my friends to get into the same situations I did or give up their normal RL moral values for the sake of companionship.

Bring on the comments.......

BBBC 2010 - Day 4

2010-06-16T15:09:00.000-07:00

Todays Topic - Is your avatar more or less your current biological age? Do you portray a younger avatar, or older? Why is this?

This is kind of a tricky one for me to answer. Biologically RL me is newly 32. The way I act/talk/feel I am still in my mid 20's somewhere. I see age as just a number. I don't think your age has to define who you are. Just because I am in my 30's it is pressumed that I should be married/engaged or happily partnered, living comfortably, have a job, act like an adult etc etc. Well I'm none of those, sorta.

Let me expand a bit (this blog may take on some aspect of an RL blog more than an SL blog at first) I was married once upon a time. For 7 years. so as you can imagine from just those two sentences I was married at a young age, 21 to be precise. I always felt I was 'older' than others my age so my friends were in their thirties, my then husband was 7 years older than me, we had the house, the dog, the jobs.....we had what I hear my friends talk about these days as what you should have at my age. well that ended a few years back and I realised that I didn't have to be what society depicted as suitable for my age. So I'm just me. I don't own my home - I live with a friend. I have no job at the moment - some days I hate this some days I love the sleep in. I love to muck around, have fun, laugh, talk like an idiot, joke around with my friends - more like a 20yr old would. The only thing I sort of have from my earlier list is a boyfriend - he just happens to live on the other side of the world.

SL me is very much just like RL me. To the extent that I don't have the amazon tall, anorexic with perfect skin and perfect hair. I'm at the height I am in RL (which makes people say I am a short ass or a child in SL), I am curvy and out of proportion, I wear my hair messy and tend to have male hairdos (since I have a typically male hair cut in RL) and I muck around, joke with friends, talk like an idiot etc etc.

It's a bit of a tricky subject with me, anything that involves the "is the RL you like the SL you". Dress standards, size, shape, hair colour, skin blah blah blah. I hear so many people say things like their avatar is just like an extension of their RL selves and they are both the same.... my avatar is just like in the real world, what you see is what you get.....I try to make my avatar look just like me since it is me driving it.....etc and so forth. Yet half of those people have avatars that are 8ft tall, and as skinny as Kate Moss. So when I say I am like my avatar, and my avatar acts the same age. I actually mean it. The only difference would be I don't have all the cool clothes in RL or live on a beautiful beach with a gorgeous house. One day though.....one day.

BBBC 2010 - Day 3

2010-06-14T23:07:00.000-07:00

Today's Topic - How hard do you think it is to find a relationship in SL? If you have an SL relationship, have you met in the physical world? Would you meet them? Do you think it would change your SL relationship if you met?

When I first joined SL - some years back - I was in an RL relationship and did not look for one in SL. I was happy just wandering around like a noob, RPing, dancing meeting new friends etc. When my RL relationship ended I found myself spending more time in world to distract myself and spent more and more time with a friend which turned into an SL relationship, which in turn ended up being an RL relationship. We ended up partnering in SL and still continued to log in together and talk to friends, RP and what not.

I guess I answered all questions in one. Yes, I would meet my SL SO if I felt the relationship was strong enough. I don't think the online relationship changes much. I guess the only thing that changed for me was the amount of time I spent logged in.

I am currently in an SL relationship and although I have not met him in RL, I will some day soon. I don't really class our relationship as an SL one because we technically got together outside of SL and had not even met in world at the time. The joys of friends introducing friends through plurk and skype. But now that we have met in world we don't tend to leave each others sides for all that long. Unless we go shopping and I spot shoes somewhere then I will abandon him at the drop of a hat to go in search of a bargain.

The only thing I can see changing for us online when we finally do meet, is the amount of time we will spend not logged in. The only reason we both log in at the moment is to see the other one. But most of the time we are in skype. I guess for long distance relationships like ours, and others that I know, SL sort of serves as a way to 'be with each' when you can't. It may jut be pixels sitting on a cuddle poseball...but sometimes that's all it takes to turn a frown upside down.

BBBC 2010 - Day 2

2010-06-14T09:24:00.000-07:00

Todays Topic - Write about three positive things going on in your Second Life.

Well I can think of two straight up. Going to be a challenge to think of a third. So while I think about that let me tell you about 1 & 2.

Positive #1 - In one word.......Bill. I have had my fair share of ups and downs with relationships in SL. Some were good, some were horrendous and others I can sit back and laugh at with the ex knowing we are better off as friends.

Love lost - Love found. I may have lost more than I have found, but when this one found me I was taken by surprise as I had given up all hope of finding anyone 'normal' to hang around with of the opposite sex in SL. I gave up my sim, closed down my little shop, said goodbye to friends and had stopped logging in, only keeping in contact with the SL world through my Plurk friends. You are my knight in shining armour Bill.

Positive #2 - Operation Squeegee. I watched the news one late night recently and sat in horror as I saw the oil spill in the gulf just spewing out into the ocean. Thinking of all those poor animals, marine plants and surrounding areas that are going to be affected by such a tragedy. A friend, the awesome Further, then made a comment in Plurk about wanting to do some sort of fundraiser to help out with the oil spill recovery and I found myself jumping in and offering whatever I could to do to help. A week later I'm now known as the Merchant Wrangler for Operation Squeegee and it gives me the warm and fuzzies as more and more merchants send me their notecards wanting to be a part of this awesome event. It's sad that a spill like this is the reason we are all getting together for a sale, some music and entertainment. Then you think about the money that is going to be raised over this 2 week period being sent to the nominated charity - The National Wildlife Foundation - and how it will help save in some way the destruction seen in the gulf. Thank you Further for being the brainchild behind Operation Squeegee, and more importantly thank you for allowing me to be a part of it and help in my own small way.

Positive #3 - Ok well as I said in the beginning of this post, I was having trouble thinking of a #3. And at this stage in the blog post I still don't have one. My Second Life is not that existent these days. There are two reasons I log in when I do and they are mentioned above. If it weren't for Bill and Further I dare say that 'Arora Zanzibar' would be dust and a memory right now.

Ahhh there you have it - my positive #3.......Good Friends. Having friends like these two means I am still around to blog about my SL. If I wasn't here then I wouldn't be doing this challenge.

The BBBC 2010

2010-06-13T22:22:00.000-07:00

What is 'The BBBC 2010' you ask. Alicia Chenaux posted The Big Bad Bloggers Challenge 2010 on her blog, and who am I to pass up a challenge. I was supposed to be using this blog for a 'picture' a day but what with RL having it's annoying habit of interfering I have been rather slack in that venture. So this is going to kick start me back into doing it again. With this challenge taking a week to complete I will aim to post a picture with each day I answer the bloggers challenge questions. And after the BBBC - well I will be on my own challenge to keep up the posting of pics from around SL.

So here goes............

Today's Topic: Why did you become a blogger? How has it enriched your life?

Becomming a blogger is not something I thought I would ever do. I may have the gift of the gab and be able to talk under water with a mouthful of wet cement and marbles, but I never saw myself as the 'writing it all down and sharing it' type of person. That was until I was introduced to a dear friend of mine, Marnix.

You know the first time you meet someone in SL - you check out their profile, read about them to see if there is any conversation starters in there, check out their pics to see if you have things in common etc. Well I did just that and friends also told me about his blog. Being the curious ....maybe stalker type.....person that I was, I went and checked out his blog. Now I may be the odd one out here, but I went to the oldest post first. I wanted to read from start to finish to see what made this guy tick. See how he had grown, or not, during his time in SL. And while sitting there reading I found myself cracking up laughing at his strange rantings,trend followings, chicken escapades and rather interesting dress sense.

Press fast forward and jump a few months down the track I got the nerve to start my own blog. It was after talking to him one night that I decided to show the SL World that I could be a blogger. I looked around and blog hosting sites, found layouts to mix and match to my style, I got caught up in the moment of "OMG I'm now a blogger". I then sat back and stared at my screen thinking to myself "So what now?" That answers my 'Why'...I was inspired by someone that was just as much an everyday, down to earth, comedian in their own mind as I was. If he could do it, why couldn't I?

That was around November last year. I have changed blogs since then and started second ones, helped manage others and been an avid reader of many of my friends blogs. I still don't class myself as 'a blogger'. I have a blog - sure. I write my thoughts, ramblings, shopping finds - when I remember. But I'm still just Rors. I don't think being a blogger has really changed me all that much. I do find my shopping addiction has slightly gotten out of hand though

Reflections

2010-05-03T21:38:00.000-07:00

It's one of those times in my life where I sit and stare out the window watching the clouds float by and wonder.....why?

This is one of those blog posts where I just blurt out what is on my mind and go all emo, so you've been warned. The pic above is a reflection of how I have been feeling lately. Scarred, bruised, hurt, unsure........

Have you ever given up everything....family, friends, work, house....life! and relocated to make someone else happy? It's an amazing feeling. Knowing that what you are doing for this other person is going to make their life much more happier.

I'm not one to usually take much notice to the saying "Too good to be true". Maybe I should have been a little more cautious. I know everyone has their own way of living, lifestyles, habits etc. But when one person gives up their life as they know it, is it too much to expect the other person make some small sacrifices?

I'm very transparent and most people will know exactly who and what this about. Normally I would be trying to hide these things or feel I should be careful of the other persons feelings. The last time I spoke to this person I told them to "Go away before I said something that would hurt". That was two days ago. And frankly, my mood at the moment, I really don't care.

I don't live the same way as other people - I may be cleaner, I may be messier, I may be quieter or I may be louder. The fact is we are all different. My sole purpose of giving up everything and moving was to make not only their life better but also my own in the process.

I can only do so much when someone refuses to stop hiding behind the crutch they have leaned on for so long and won't stop making excuses for themselves, and hiding behind the safety of a computer screen.

Most of my plurk friends know I am giving up my sim. I am doing this as a wake up call for someone. I am taking a break from SL. I'm taking a break from the computer in general. Only popping on now and then to clear out emails etc. My life exists outside of this 17inch screen. I may have no friends in that life, no family around me and no job to get me out of the house from 9 - 5 each day. But I make do with what I have and I will not hide behind the screen for the rest of my life. I only wish that the one person that means the most to me would wake up and realise this before it's too late.

Lost...

2010-04-19T08:10:00.000-07:00

...Lost in your heart, lost in your eyes

Lost every day, no map to follow

Entire days, weeks, a blur

Flickers of light, in the darkness,

Only to be enveloped in shadows once more...

~Peter Winstanley

I've never felt unrequited affection/lust. Well not until now. I've heard many a story from friends and acquaintances, of relationships forming from the basis of friendships that turned romantic; best friends finally realising they were meant to be together.

I have never looked at my friends that way... Until I met you.

You light up my night. Fill my dreams with your passion. Make my days seem endless with laughter. I know that you see the look in my eyes when I glance at you. You hear my voice skip and stutter when I talk to you. Feel my body close to yours as we sit and laugh about the day. I also know that what I feel for you will never be returned to me.

You've walked a different path recently and our paths haven't crossed for sometime. I haven't stopped thinking about you though. Still laying under the stars at night smiling to myself as I remember funny things you said to me. Waking in the morning with you on my mind. I miss you.

I sit and cuddle my teddy bear wishing it were you I was cuddling. I once told you how I felt and laughed it off as a silly joke, hiding my insecurities behind my humour once more. I have you in my life as a friend and I curl up at night; snuggled up with my teddy bear knowing that our friendship means the world to me. Do I want more than our friendship? Yes. I want you.

I will go to sleep tonight dreaming and wishing on the stars that one day our friendship would cross those boundaries. Dreams do come true....right?

Ask me why I keep on wanting you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to want me, I can't force myself to stop wanting you. ~Author Unknown

National Day Of Silence

2010-04-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

On the National Day of Silence hundreds of thousands of students nationwide take a vow of silence to bring attention to anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment in their schools. I am no longer a student but I stand up in support of those students.

Day Of Silence Website

Day Of Silence Blog

Day Of Silence on Facebook

Gay-Straight Alliances on Facebook

Day of Silence 2010 on Twitter

Day Of Silence on Myspace

The Night Chauffeur

2010-03-27T06:48:00.001-07:00

I am the one who watches you in rear vision mirrors. I am the voyeur. I am paid to watch.

Slowly through the night you slide up and down your seat, your sex wild for sultry male strangers to be your mobile bedfellows, women too; for their soft flesh.

Men see your sex and rush to enter, success delayed by your teasing ways.

Around with your tongue, the round curves of a curvaceous sex kitten meowing out loud.

Arouse but do not reveal your shroud until their tongue surround your sex and you cry out loud.

Panting!...

Screaming!...

Wanting!...

Craving!...

Can't stop. The car refuelled. The pace quickens. One...Two...Three...Four. Welcome another through the door. Five...Six...Seven...Eight. Until it's light, it's never too late.

You are like a wolf. The wolf and the sex kitten.

Pump!...

Thrust!...

Crave!...

Lust!...

Slowly you begin to move your hips in a smooth rocking movement, caressing his hardness with your sex, all silky and wet.

You slither up and down, slowly at first and then faster...faster...again...again. Rising up almost pulling yourself off of him before plunging down on him, trapping him deep within you. Riding him wildly, matching each thrust to the motion of the bumps caused by the road.

Your hunger peaks and a scream tears from your throat.

Gently the passion seeps away and you lay entwined together; but not for long.

You smile up at him, gently touching his face with a cool, elegant hand. You reach up and give him a moist, lingering kiss before we drive off once again. Leaving only his scent and the memories of a passionate encounter upon the upholstery.

Day 38

2010-03-05T07:40:00.001-08:00

Day 37

2010-03-04T00:14:00.001-08:00

Day 36

2010-03-01T23:38:00.001-08:00

Day 35

2010-02-17T05:24:00.000-08:00

Day 34

2010-02-16T14:42:00.000-08:00

Day 33

2010-02-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

Language... has created

the word "loneliness" to

express the pain of being

alone. And it has created

the word "solitude" to express

the glory of being alone

On Hold

2010-02-06T03:04:00.001-08:00

I know it has been a couple of days since I posted a pic but that is because my computer is currently out of action. I will resume my photo of the day as soon as my computer is back. Thanks for your patience.

Rors

Day 32

2010-02-01T20:49:00.000-08:00

ooo.... Look what I found.....

Day 31

2010-02-01T04:33:00.000-08:00

New beginnings of Zanzibar creationZ at Seashell

Day 30

2010-01-30T21:16:00.000-08:00

Standing in the moonlight surveying the land so far.

Day 29

2010-01-29T19:39:00.000-08:00

Day 28 - A NEW SIM!!!!

2010-01-28T23:12:00.001-08:00

I have a new sim.....yay!!!! Time to terraform and build again. The next few photos will be the progress of my building and terraforming.

Day 27

2010-01-27T19:37:00.001-08:00

Picture taken at Drowsy

Day 26 - SL v RL

2010-01-26T22:10:00.001-08:00

Day 25

2010-01-25T23:20:00.001-08:00

Pose from the Music Box Prop @ Studio Sidhe

Day 24

2010-01-24T23:49:00.000-08:00

What's for dinner?

Day 23

2010-01-23T16:21:00.000-08:00

It's all just a blur.

Picture taken at Cadaverum

Day 22

2010-01-22T23:48:00.000-08:00

Beauty is skin deep.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

All these sayings to make people feel better about themselves.

You once called me beautiful.

If I remove all my makeup and expensive clothes,

You'll see me for what I really am.

I'm still the same person

I still feel, love, want, need and crave,

But I am flawed.

Do you still think I am beautiful?

Skin: Peeling Pant, from alpha.tribe

Pose: Female Pose Pack - #7, from ~Sinsity~

Day 21

2010-01-21T23:53:00.000-08:00

Pose: Model #168 from SEmotion Studio

Day 20

2010-01-20T23:25:00.000-08:00

True friendship is like pissing your pants;

Everyone can see it,

But only you can feel the warmth.

Love you bunny.

You'll always be my warmth.

Day 19

2010-01-19T21:30:00.000-08:00

Day 18

2010-01-18T22:16:00.000-08:00

OK. So this photo wasn't taken today. But I wasn't in the mood for taking a new photo today. So instead I decided to show you a photo of three awesome friends. Chase and Sims came over for a visit and we all sat around goofing off while Ember and I swung our legs over the deck and looked off into the distance. <3

Day 17

2010-01-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

Day 16

2010-01-16T20:13:00.000-08:00

Take Me pose by ~Sinsity~

Day 15

2010-01-15T23:49:00.001-08:00

Day 14

2010-01-14T23:48:00.001-08:00

Day 13

2010-01-13T23:31:00.000-08:00

An unexpected call from a friend

Sexual tension that knows no end

Talk to me baby, you ask

My desires, I try to mask

Your words lift me on high

Try to say no, just try

A night filled with dreams

Your name echoing in my screams

When will you visit again

When, my friend, when

Day 12

2010-01-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

Day 11

2010-01-11T23:56:00.000-08:00

Pose - Fantasy Fae by [LAP]

Day 10

2010-01-10T17:48:00.000-08:00

Day 9

2010-01-09T22:31:00.001-08:00

Unicycle from Studio Sidhe

Day 8

2010-01-09T00:00:00.000-08:00

Simply Me

Day 7

2010-01-07T23:31:00.001-08:00

FREE Sick AO by ## Creative Insanity ##

Day 6

2010-01-06T19:35:00.001-08:00

Stand from Vista Badgirl Extended AO

Day 5

2010-01-05T21:15:00.000-08:00

"Na-ne-nah"

Pose by Studio Sidhe

Day 4

2010-01-04T04:45:00.001-08:00

Pose by SEmotion Studio

Day 3

2010-01-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

Generally on these daily pics there will not be a blurb to accompany it. But this one deserves it. Tee, Tape and Face writing all supplied free at *Dreams* by Sanura Snowpaw. Accompanying the Tee is a notecard with information about NO H8 and what it stands for (as copied below). Sanura used the 'Love' part of the logo created by Trace Osterham for the front of this tee. The rest of the design was made solely by her. This tee is only for NO H8 and no profit will be made from it.

Love and commitment know no bounds of race, creed, colour, sex or handicap. (from www.whiteknot.org/index.html )

"On November 4th, 2008 Proposition 8 passed, amending the state Constitution to ban same-sex marriage.

In the wake of the defeat, there has been a groundswell of initiative from within the community at grassroots level. Seizing this opportunity, new political and protest organizatitions are forming almost daily. The NOH8 Campaign is a photo project & silent protest created by celebrity photographer Adam Bouska and partner Jeff Parshley in direct reponse to the passage of Proposition 8.

The campaign started with portraits of everyday Californians who support Marriage Equality and soon rose to celebrities, military personnel, brothers & sisters, law enforcement, lesbian mothers, directors, politicians, newlyweds, and more. Photos feature subjects with duct tape over their mouths symbolizing their voices not being heard and NOH8 painted on one cheek in protest. " (from the NO H8 campaign website, www.noh8campaign.com)

As residents of SL and as individual human beings, we have the right to a voice. The NO H8 campaign in SL is a way for us to say "Hey, we want our voices to be heard." Please pass the word on. (From Trace Osterham / Kristen Pick)

Pose by SEmotion Studio

Day 2

2010-01-02T15:42:00.000-08:00

"No wonder you're late. Why, this watch is exactly two days slow"

Arora - Pose by Couveture

Ember - Pose in Mad Hatter Tea Party Scene by Luna McMillan

Day 1

2010-01-01T21:52:00.000-08:00

"It's not too late to stay out of the water"

Pose by Couverture

New Beginnings

2009-12-29T00:57:00.001-08:00

I'm back and I'm ready to blog.

Some may remember the "Rambling with Rors" blog. Well I have revamped and am back at it ready to go again. This blog will be dedicated to "A Pic A Day" in SL. 365 days of fabulous pics from around the grid.

Stay tuned. Starts January 1, 2010.